Sunday, December 19, 2010

You know you have teenagers when....

You are the first one up in the morning!

All those years spent praying for a decent sleep in, the early morning duties, spooning soggy weetbix into little cherubs greedy mouths, smiling back through sleep encrusted bleary eyes, holding your breath during that early morning nappy retrieval, the joy in four loads of washing by 8am..............

And now you are the first one up, not at that much dreamt about 9am, but bright and early by 7am, tip-toeing around the house marvelling at how life changes, how fast it moves and how, despite the bumps, we need to appreciate every single moment.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

A week until Christmas!!!

I can hardly believe it.

Don't think that I am going to crack that magic 100 mark by Xmas but that's ok.

My restriction is pretty good but my choices haven't been that great, it's amazing how the lapband protests to funny things like the skin on grapes but doesn't bat an eye at chocolate.

I haven't been drinking anything alcoholic and that has certainly helped move the scales.

I could also use a little of that magical excercise thing, and I am hoping the motivation to do that is hidden in the new year.

In the new year I will be working on a new project for three months, I will be able to dictate my hours and with the girls on holidays that is likely to be a 7am start so I can finish early, hit the gym and still be home by 5pm.

Hopefully after three months of excercise I will have hit the point of no return and continue.

Things at work have improved and I am sort of in limbo - heading into a new project but not sure of what is on the other side.

All the presents are wrapped under the tree - a first for this time of year.  There are a few more things I want to get the younger girls but essentially I am done - it feels good!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Oh What does the week bring.....

A total load of shit at work and a 1.4kg loss.

Maybe the scales knew I needed a boost this week?  It was a shocker.

Started well, ended really badly.

Worst thing is I feel so totally let down.

I am not a 'get to know you & feel like friends' type of person.

But when I do 'get to know you & feel like friends' and you let me down it is pretty bad for me.

Worst still, I can't escape from you, you sit next to me and have input into every minute of my working day.

If you are having a hissy and not speaking it is really uncomfortable.

I shouldn't have to work this's not fair...........but you hold all the power because you won your position and I am just filling in............such is life..........the money isn't worth this.........

Shame I love the job.........

Sunday, November 7, 2010


These small losses and the seemingly required up/down monthly cycle are doing my head in.

I have THREE weeks until my next fill - sheesh seems a million years away.

Up by 400 grams this week - no surprises there, my boobs feel like aching, swollen rocks, my mood is crappy and it all means one thing - TTOM is upon me - gawd I really thought it was only just over wahhh!

I suffer from PMDD and my cycle can be extreme to say the least.  I really need to start taking Evening Primrose again as this does help with the fluid retention quite a bit.  As for the rest, well I continue to pray the Zoloft is enough this month and that the Imigran will knock the migraines out first go.

And of course I should haul my lazy butt off to the gym, found my membership card yesterday so that excuse is gone.....

Saturday, October 23, 2010

More fashion.....

Just because it was snagged at 40% off!!!

OLD NAVY - casual weekend wear

This does NOT have the white top under it so I am putting it with this top instead


Is the whole business of life really.

When did it become exhausting?  Somewhere between work, children and husband I suppose.

Try as I might to keep my head above water I quite often feel the rip dragging me back down somehow......

Friday, October 22, 2010

Hmm I think they can tell.....

Over the last few days I have heard these statements not once but several times

"Wow that's a really nice top"
"Have you had your hair done?  It's looks really pretty today"

Very flattering and totally fantaboulous for my self esteem of course and I am sure it is because people are noticing a change but can't quite pin-point what it is or don't want to say the dreaded "Have you lost weight?"

I am loving it and also loving clothes shopping!  OMG I have done so much shopping it is crazy.  Need to settle it down a bit and start getting ready for Xmas I think.

But just to share some of the outfits I have been putting together for work:

From Gap

From Old Navy:

Monday, October 18, 2010

2 months 1 day and 12.1 kgs.....

Tracking back down......

I have some restriction, if I eat too much it is like a rock in my chest so I don't go there.. for me it is, and probably always will be about food choices.

Oh I was at work the other day, having my crackers and tuna for lunch - now I usually have cruskits but we didn't have any so I grabbed some Ryvita's - ummmm NO! 

Whether it was because I didn't chew enough, or they are just too dense I was like UhOh......this is what they all talk pain in the middle of the chest, feeling the need to burp, sneak of to the bathroom.........nothing, now I have a total aversion to being sick so I was quite happy I wasn't, it must have worked it's way down but let me tell you, lunch was well and truly over for me that day!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Why do we do it?

Eat the things we know we shouldn't.

Travelling along quite nicely until the afternoon meeting where I produced two bowls of lollies for the group to share - yeah right what a joke really I wanted a few myself didn't I.

Then after dinner, having to drop Miss 11 at her modelling classes of course I decided that it would be a good idea to get the twins a reward of McFlurries for being the two most sane people in the house.  Of course this meant I could justify a chocolate sundae for myself, and as I was ordering the word large came out of my mouth all of its own accord.

About halfway through eating this I realised that I was staring 502 calories right in the face (as per Calorie King my new best/worst enemy) so to make myself feel a little better at the 3/4 mark I started feeding my darling Cavaliers the rest, incidently they both ADORE icecream.

So in one day I have managed to encourage my children in the belief that a McFlurry is a suitable reward,  fed my darling Cavaliers completely empty calories and made more excuses to myself about bad food choices than Kevin Rudd did about mining taxes.

I did however save myself   125 calories from that damn sundae and scored myself a free Big Mac voucher because they took more than three minutes to serve me my cup of fat - yay me!

Still under my Calorie King daily allowance.....

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Much the same

But I am not too disapointed - I expected it.

I have put on 200 grams - in the scheme of things, this is nothing. 

A bit of a shakeup though, get back on track, stick to the plan, just because you can eat it doesn't mean you should!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

2.5ml and 1.5ml = 4ml

That is what we are up to.

Doesn't feel any different yet, maybe it will in the morning?

I have to giggle at the number of people my Dr sees on his visits - about 150 each day on the Saturday and Sunday. Hmmmm now 150 x $140= $21,000 x 2 = $42,000 no wonder my Mum told me to marry a Dr!!!!!

It goes something like this.....

Hello's as you walk up the hallway, jump on the scales - good they are going down, jump on the bed, he is a master filler - in and out in seconds, have a drink before you go & seeya in six weeks.

But I love him, the no nonsense, no bullshit style is perfect!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Blah Blah Blah

Is about how I have felt since I decided a chicken burger would be a good idea on Wednesday.

Ok half a chicken burger because you all know a whole chicken burger isn't going to work.

I swear it really wasn't that great, straight away I felt yuck - too full, grossed out and pretty darn dissapointed in myself.

Maybe that's an over-reaction, I mean it was half a burger right?

Should have stuck to my cruskits and tuna!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Finally - Photo Update 12kgs down - can you tell?

Ok apart from being a little blurry I don't think there is any doubt that 12kgs makes a HUGE difference! 

I was a little hesitant putting these up, but do you know what - anyone thinking about a lapband needs to see the remarkable difference that it can make!

Want to see the rest of the pics?  Leave a comment with your email address and I will email you the password.
9/8/10 One week before surgery                     

  5/10/10 Seven Weeks Later

Sunday, October 3, 2010

An old post resurrected....just because!

The Treasure Box

Looks a little bit like this in my imagination.

It sits at the back of my mind and whenever required I carefully lift the lid about an inch, hurriedly drop my latest problem or issue in it and VOILA problem gone!

Over the years I have replaced the bursting hinges, added a couple of new locks and sat on it a couple of times.

There is really some serious shit in there.

I recommend it for all of those that think things are too hard, think its all too much.

Get a treasure box fill the fucker and get on with it.

Oh I am really quite good after all.....

No football final blow out - my sister in law is doing a new diet - 'healthy inspirations' and instead of the usual junky lunch on offer she made some amazing, healthy and totally delish dishes.

I loved the spinach, tomato and mushroom frittata it was sooooo yummy!

We ended up coming home just after midnight, I drove, got stopped by a breathalyser......there is something very satisying about getting pulled over with a car full of drunk people and being 0.00, it's just such a 'see I am such a good girl officer' moment.

Of course getting home and joining in with the drunken people and being awake when the sun came up may have been something I could have lived without, talk about seedy!  On a positive though I did not eat all the usual junk foods while drinking, and did not have a big KFC recovery meal either...............sleep and water work a treat!

Hope everyone has seen the weight watchers mini-meals - perfect for work lunches.

I have had the creamy mushroom penne and creamy tuna penne, both taste quite good for a frozen meal, and the size is brilliant for a bandit.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Weekly update

Yes it's two days early, but what can I say tomorrow is Grand Final day - again, and I don't plan on being very good, and I don't plan on doing much of anything on Sunday either.

Drum-roll please .............. another 1.5 kgs GONE - wooohooo!

I couldn't be happier.

I thought around Tuesday that this may be an interesting week as suddenly the fill I had two weeks ago seems to have kicked in and I am full after a slice of toast. 

Its also been really strange as one day I was full after a slice of toast, the next I hate half a serve of sweet and sour pork and was quite surprised with what I managed, that night three mouthfuls and bang - full again!

This whole lapband jopurney is really interesting.

I also think that I may have actually lost more weight the week prior but because it was that time of the month it didn't reflect on the scales.

I wore my first size 'Large' top yesterday and have a draw full of clothes ready to grow into!

Very exciting times.

So six weeks since surgery and nearly 12 kilos gone - I am completely happy with that!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

40 days and 40 nights

Is how long I have had my lapband in for and I have lost 10.2kgs.  Have a look at the weight tally page for my progress.

At them moment I am losing around half a kilo a week which although it feels somewhat slow to me is actually perfect because it will (hopefully) allow my skin the time it needs to shrink back to my new body.

I am still convinced that I will need a stomach tuck, mostly because of the skin that was stretched out after having the twins and never bounced back despite being around 65kgs AFTER they where born - wow that seems a lifetime ago!

Plus I will need a breast lift and maybe a teensy tiny implant just because I can.

Back at work for two weeks now which of course has been the reason for my lack of blogging.  Will absolutely promise to do a weekly update every Sunday, and some in betweens as I can.

I am eating everything now, there is nothing that I can't eat, I believe that makes me one of the lucky banded people.  No issues with meat. bread or anything like that, I just eat much less than I used to.

And it's funny how your mindset changes, yesterday for example being grandfinal day and a complete shocker of a day nutrition/eating wise I was like hmmmmmmm did I eat too much?

1/2 ham and cheese toasted sandwich, 1 piece toast with vegemite, 1/2 KFC snack box, the head of a caramello koala, 1 piece of toast with one egg, three drinks watching the footy and a few handfulls of chips.

Now once upon a time this would have been:

A whole hame and cheese toasted sandwich, 3 pieces of toast with vegemite, a whole KFC meal, the whole caramello koala, probably 12 drinks, a few handfulls of chips PLUS dips/cheese/biscuits etc because the footy would have been the perfect excuse right?  Plus I would have cooked a big family meal to end the day because I always cook the best after a few drinks.

I think I can stop worrying about yesterday!

It was certainly not the best nutrition wise but today is a new day.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Emily's Quest To Be Miss Fashion 2011

Well after her debut in Miss Country Girl Tasmania, Miss Emily really wants to compete in Miss Fashion 2011 being held in Townsville.

So the ticket selling and fund-raising commence!

First of all she needs to sell 500 tickets to enter, between work, school and home I don't think this will be a problem.

Then of course we need the funds to get her there and make it happen!

We have six months to raise enough for airfares and accomadation costs - anyone have any sure-fire fundraising ideas?

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Totally out of control

No - not with the lapband, that is all going well, my first 'fill' is this Saturday which is great.

I can see those calories creeping up over the last two weeks - 800, 900, 1000, 1100 - now hovering at around 1200 a day but I feel good and a small fill will get me back down to the 1000 calorie mark which seems to be the optimum for bandits.

What is totally out of control is our weather here in Tassie.  It is blowing a gale!

All I can hear is the wind ripping through the trees, over roofs and rain pelting down.  The dogs are scared senseless and barking at every creak and groan of the fences.

Hopefully it clears up somwhat tomorrow because I am meant to be heading down to Hobart for Miss Em's 'Little Miss Country Girl Tasmania' debut!  Oh the things we do.

Will update in full on Sunday, the first week back at work has been a shocker! 

First abusive customer seen today and he was a doosie, standing 30cm away from me screaming abuse into my face what a charmer!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Weigh in a day early

Because we are heading of to Launceston today.  The girls are going roller-blading this afternoon and then we will kick back and relax at the Country Club Villa's for the night before picking up DH from his early morning flight.

So a day early and an 800 gram loss, I am happy with that!!!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Time to go back to work

Because I am bored.

Yes bored - please don't throw things at me but I do actually like my job and four weeks away has been a wonderful break but now I am ready to go back.......bring on Monday!

Pathetic really, I am probably one of those people that would win Lotto and still need to go back to work - might have a year off to travel, sip drinks in Tahiti with Linda Loo, shop in Paris, checkout Disneyland, all the while waiting for my slightly upgraded house to be built, I just want to add a theatre room, full equipped gym and indoor pool with spa - don't want a lot really do I?!?!?!?!

All good on the lapband front, hit the gym this morning have the fat content well under control for today, despite being bored, when I am bored I have 'head-hunger' every hour!

I find that I can't have breakfast until around 10.30ish so planning to have something at work during morning tea and see how that goes. 

I am also planning to STOP work at 5.15pm - no longer will I be the silly one there until 6.30pm 'catching' up, no the new and improved me will finish at 5.15pm and get my gym gear on as soon as that last customer is out the door (part of my job as supervisor is to stay until the last customer has left) then..................... I am off to the gym!

A 30 minute workout and I should be home by 6.10pm at the latest!

That's the plan anyway.

Wednesday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 x piece of toast with a soft egg on it
KFC - 1 x wicked wing, 1/2 chicken leg, 1/2 mini popcorn chicken, 1/2 small potato and gravy, ohhhh yep naughty naughty but about 1/5 of what I used to have!
1 x Soft Pita Bread Taco with salad
4 x 250ml Coffee
2 x Sponge Fingers

This equates to 1123 Cal or 4695 Kjs
43% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 34% from carbs

Thursday's Menu

Water - not as much as usual need to drink more water less coffee
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
2 x Weetbix with 3/4 cup skim milk
4 x 250ml Coffee
1/2 a mushroom, tomato and prosciutto omelette
3 x light cruskits
1 x 95gram tin tuna with tomato and onion
1 x chocolate cupcake

This equates to 980 Cal or 4094 Kjs
24% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 53% from carbs

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

What's the fat in that?

One of the things that I need to address I guess FAT CONTENT, I need to learn more about the good and bad fats.

It's all well and good to be having 1000 or so calories a day but I need to be careful of the fat content. 

Yesterday was a shocker - today a slight improvement and I am sure tomorrow will be even better!

I did hit the gym today so that should help, tomorrow the twins and I are going to the Imagenarium which is having a sporting display, that should be super fun and keep us nicely active for the morning!

I was so excited to find a size 16 top yesterday that fit me perfectly!  I love it, and it made me start browsing for more clothes, like I need an excuse I do shop constantly for the girls, I mean Miss 11 has 26 summer dresses hanging and ready to go -  BUT shopping for me is a new experience.

This excitement led me to buy a dress - I haven't worn a dress in..........ten years maybe?

I bought this one a couple of sizes down, it can be my first 'target' dress.

What do you think?

I just ADORE it. 

And my 'menu' for the last couple of day's

Saturday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 x 220ml Coffee
1 x McCafe Cappuccino
1/2 slice McCafe Fruit Toast with butter
100 gram I&J Fish Fillet
95 grams tuna in oil
3/4 cup potato bake
1/2 Vanilla Snack Pack Custard

This equates to 982 cal or 4105 Kjs
41% of the calories are from fat, 24% from protein, 35% from carbs

Sunday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
3/4 crumpet
1 x soft fried egg
1 x 220ml coffee
100 gram I&J Fish Fillet
3 x Cruskits with margarine and vegemite
3/4 crumbed chicken burger
Small portion chips and gravy

This equates to 986 Cal or 4125 Kjs
43% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 34% from carbs

Monday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 x 220ml Coffee
1 x small movie popcorn
20 x Maltesers - oopppsss :o)
3 x cruskits with tuna and cheese
1/2 lamb chop with potatoes, carrots and peas
1 x Bulla Crunch Icecream

This equates to 1259 Cal or 5258 Kjs
43% of the calories are from fat, 18% from protein, 39% from carbs

Tuesday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multivitamin
1 x 150 gram Cappaccino Le Rice
1 x Cup my special low fat Nacho's with a tablespoon each of light sour cream and avocado
1 x Cup Pasta Bake & one piece garlic bread
1/2 Rasberry Muffin

This equates to 1047 Cal or 4372 Kjs
39% of the calories are from fat, 13% from protein, 48% from carbs

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Lapband = THANKYOU

Ok Ok - technically the band hasn't done ALL the work because I am making choices about what I eat and about the excercise I do to assist the band.

What the band has done however is allow me to follow those golden diet rules 'a little bit of everything' without feeling hungry!

Weigh in this morning and another 1.7kgs GONE!

Will update pictures later today, if you would like to follow my journey via weekly pictures please leave a comment and I will email you the password.

Oh here is a picture of me on holidays last week, the pants I am wearing - a size 20 - are now to big, lucky for me I already had the size 18 ready and waiting to go.  Thanks goodness for my wonderful ladies in the US who post me over bargains from OLD NAVY.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Scamander, St Helen's, Lapband on Holidays

As promised our holiday update.

First of all this was a well overdue holiday, we where meant to go in August 2009 but I tore through my right calf muscle playing netball and was on crutches for three weeks.  I felt totally horrid the week we where meant to go, and could hardly raise my leg to step in the shower so we figured a holiday might be pushing it.

It was a great deal through Sunseeker erhhummmm did I just say great deal? 

We actually changed accomadation on the last night because despite being very clean and provising a great continental breakfast to our room, the rooms themselves where less than expected.

Poor Sam at 6 foot 4 and I, still of course needing to loose some 44kgs, squished into a double bed was interesting, no way could I complain about the lack of cuddling!

We changed over to a Blue Seas family unit which suited us so much more.  The girls LOVED the pool, and I wasn't complaining about my hour in the Spa either.

The views from the Balcony where just gorgeous, next time we will be staying there (or similar) from the start - no more Sunseeker deals for us.

Early morning View

Afternoon view and back of other units

Afternoon view out towards the sea

We all loved it, and managed to get around and see quite a few things including the 'Pub in the Paddock' with Priscilla the Beer Swilling Pig.  Now if you are visiting Tassie this is a must visit, in fact I'd be inclined to stay a night, apparently the food is quite good. 

You may have mixed feelings about giving a pig beer - rest assured our offering was clearly very watered down, and I believe the RSPCA have been regular visitors to check on the welfare of the pig.

Still have mixed feelings?  Well it's up to the individual I suppose, remember though if not swilling beer at the Pub in the Paddock this pig would have been on your table month's ago.

We saw Priscilla the 2nd 'PB', and there was also a  trainee piglet out the back learning the ropes.

Pub In The Paddock - Pyengana approx 40kms from St Helen's

Priscilla's welcome sign

Priscilla  catching some early spring rays

Ah she says - visitors how lovely

How do you all do?

Ahhhhhhh a beer - I'd love one!


We also went to a cheese factory/cafe just up the road from The Pub in the Paddock.  Probably one of the BEST coffee's I have had for some time, but very sparse on the cheese tastings being offered.

Some random shots of the girls - it is so hard to get pictures of them these days!

MUM do you have to?

Jessica (13), Samantha (13), Emily (11)

Jessica (13), Emily (11), Jessica (13)

Emily (11)

Emily (11)

Ok one more shot Mum - hurry up!

Having Fun

It was a great couple of days and we all came home feeling really refreshed!

Now as to what I have been eating!  Well all my newly-banded, yet to be banded friends you will be relieved to know that I was able to travel on the mushie stage and survive.  I didn't always have the 'best' choice but I was on holidays!

I have had no issues with any foods so far (touch wood), making sure I eat slowly and chew chew chew, seems to be the key.

Monday's Menu

Water - the dieter's best friend
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 cup porridge - 1/2 breakfast, 1/2 dinner - everything was closed when we arrived
50grams Spinach and Ricotta Canneloni
1/2 tub LeRice
4 squares Caramello Chocolate

This equates to 507 calories or 2122 Kjs
18% of the calories are from fat, 21% from protein, 61% from carbs

Tuesday's Menu

1xCentrum Multi Vitamin
1x200ml Sustagen
1x200ml Orange Juice
3/4 Banana
1x250ml V8 Citrus Splash
3/4 crumpet
1 x Egg
200ml Coffee
4 x glasses Vodka and Orange
20 grams Potato Chips
4 squares caramello Chocolate

Wowsers what a naughty day!!!!
This equates to 1766 cal or 7383 kjs
25% of the calories are from fat, 10% from protein, 49% from carbs and 15% from alcohol.

Wednesday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1/4 cup scrambled eggs
1 thin slice bacon
200ml orange juice
1 crumpet
1 egg
100 grams hot chips with gravy
1/4 pineapple fritter
1 x 200ml coffee
20grams Burger Rings
1x Fun Size Crunchie

This equates to 1188 cal or 4962 Kjs
% of the calories are from fat, 15% from protein, 47% from carbs

Thursday's Menu

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
3/4 tub LeRice
3/4 Weiss Vanilla and Rasberry Icecream
1 x 250ml V8 Citrus Splash
1/2 pkt Tuna To Go
30 grams tasty cheese
1/4 Chicken Duet - Alfredo
1/2 cup blended veg - potato, carrot, broccoli, peas
1x200ml Coffee

This equates to 797 cal or 3330 kjs
35% of the calories are from fat, 17% from protein, 48% from carbs

Friday's Menu

1xCentrum Multi Vitamin
1 1/2 weetbix with milk
1 200ml Sustagen
1 200ml Coffee
1 Snack size Pratties Baked Potatoe with Satay Chicken - half for lunch, half for dinner
1/2 slice of ham, cheese, tomatoe on toast

This equates to 1202 cal or 5026 kjs
32% of the calories are from fat, 27% from protein, 41% from carbs

Now tomorrow is of course weight in day and photo day.  I am really really hoping for a loss of between 500grams - 1kg and madly keeping my fingers crossed that my bad holiday choices don't do too much damage! 

We did do a bit of walking while away and on Thursday I went for a 20 minute walk, Friday was a 30 minute gym treadmill/weights session and today is the total 'I have a cold and it's raining' ssort of day!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Home.....There is no place like home...

Going away is fun, but you sure do look forward to getting home.

We had a great time, despite moving accomadation for the last part of our trip and I have some great photo's to share.

Will update fully Friday/Saturday.

In the meantime - Kay you are just going to love the pictures of the "Pub in the Paddock" with the beer swilling pig - put it on your must visit list!

Newbie lap-banders/future lap-banders - the mushie stage is heaven!  General rule - a lit bit of anything that is soft in consistancy and chew chew chew, take it slowly and all will be well.

While away I tested the waters with a few different things - scrambled eggs, a couple of bites of bacon, some chicken and prawn in a creamy white wine sauce with pasta, chips and gravy - yes all 12 of them!

It was great and not once have I felt deprived in any way, I just feel in control and I can tell you it is a GREAT feeling.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Lapband 6.5kgs gone in 12 days


That's about all I can say about that!  1/2 a kilo a day, you have to be happy with that.  Ok Ok I know that I am running at a cost of about $385/kilo but still.

Will update pictures tonight - leave me a message and I'll send you the password to my picture's.  be warned though I am in my bestest underwear!

The girls and I have just done a big tidy up, and we are all starting to think about what we need to pack for our few days away at Scamander.

DH was really quite worried about what I could eat while away but I have told him not to worry, worst case scenario I will have a bread and butter plate of vegies with gravy!

After nearly two full weeks on liquids I am thinking some mashed potato and pumpkin may just be heaven!

Today's Menu

Centrum Multi-V
200ml Coffee
1/2 weetbix mixed with hot water and milk till quite runny
2 scoops light ice-cream, 50grams blueberries
100gm pureed Ravioli
125gm Diet Caramel Cream
200ml Coffee

This equtes to 664 Cal or 2779 Kjs
23% of the calories are from fat, 21% from protein, 56% from carbs

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Not a lot Saturday.....

Not a lot happening here today.

Sarah went to work, Emily had a friend over, Twins read/watched tv/went for a walk and I listed on Ebay for most of the day trying to clear out some of these clothes I am drowning in.

Lapband wise it was a good day.  No pain, all wound coverings are now off and the little cuts are healing nicely.  I am starting to look forward to my 'mushie' stage starting Monday morning, only one more day of liquids, I think I have survived quite well.

Today's Menu

Water of course, the No1 menu item for a lap-bander
Centrum Multi-V
200ml Sustagen
250ml Up and Go chocolate
250gm Velish Butternut Pumpkin Soup
100gm Bulla Frozen Yogurt rasberry
200ml Coffee
1/2 cup runny porridge made with milk

This equates to 910 cal or 3809 Kjs
15% of the calories are from fat, 18% from protein, 67% from carbs

Friday, August 27, 2010

Not long to go.....

Three more sleeps and I will start on some solid food!

Of course it will be mushy blended food for me, but it will be lots of different types of food.

Sarah said that the weight is falling off me, let's hope Sunday morning's weigh in reflects that.

Today's Menu

Water - but you knew that right?
1 x Centrum Multi
200ml Sustagen
200ml Up and Go Banana
125gm Nestles Rolo
200ml Asian Laska Soup, noodles drained off
200ml Coffee
100gm Bulla Frozen Fruit and Yogurt

This equates to 988 cal or 4130 Kjs
23% of the calories are from fat, 14% from protein, 63% from carbs

According to Calorie King I can have 1700 calories per dayso once I can have mushie food and solid food I will be looking to stay under this amount.

Rebecca Lea Lambie 12th June 1981 ~ 20th August 2010

Today was Bec's funeral.

It was both a sad and beautiful day.

Sad because the world is now missing an exceptionally special person.

Beautiful because her loving family arranged a service that was truly reflective of who Bec was as a person, a service that was as individual as Bec was and filled with all the love and laughter that Bec would have wanted.

Bec was an amazing friend to Danielle, and a wonderful mother to her three gorgeous children

Ebony, Bailey & Gemma.

Until we meet again smiley girl.

                                         Rebecca Lea Lambie ~ One of a kind

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Shop Shop Shop

Why is it that when you go to the shop you always end up spending way more than you planned.
It was all simple enough, I grabbed a couple of extra's earlier tonight because we had an extra for dinner, not even sure how that cost $20.

Then there was the second trip.  Sarah offered to make some things first thing in the morning for after Bec's funeral tomorrow so we had a list of things to get, then I added 3 boxes of cereal that where on sale and 6 boxes of washing powder that where 1/2 price, the girls then added some drinks and lollies, a must have when you have a friend stay over, pretty soon I was at $80 and I can't even eat solid food at the moment!

It's great that Sarah is making the cakes for after the funeral service, she offered because she knew I would resort to either atempting to do it myself and showcase my complete lack of ability in the kitchen OR I would buy things in the morning and then feel guilty about not taking nice home-cooked things.

Fortunately Sarah is quite the cook and will be whipping up passionfruit vanilla slices, mini hummingbird cakes and a chocolate fruit and nut slice in her first 1.5 hours at school. 

It feels good to be doing something, anything to help when there is nothing that you can do to take someone's pain away.

I am expecting it to be a very busy and very emotional morning. 

In fact I am nearly 100% certain when I see Ebony (7), Bailey (5) and Gemma (2), and the reality that these beautiful children will never see their mother again hits I will cry like a baby on the inside, and remain calm and supportive on the outside.

Bec's youngest sister Kiana rings Emily every night and I just feel her loss so heavily poor little sweetheart.

There is never anything nice about losing a loved one.

The lapband day number 9 went quite well. 

Had the usual tightness this morning, I can really see what people say about the band being tighter in the morning, I can just sip sip sip my Sustagen and to be honest could just drink water for the rest of the day, I am feeling pretty lucky to be at day 9 and experiencing no hunger as yet.

Today's Menu

Lots of water
1 x Centrum Multivitamin and Mineral Supplement
200ml Sustagen
250ml Up and Go Energise
80gm Frozen Fruit and Yogurt
200gm Velish Tomatoe and Spinach Soup
200ml Coffee

This equates to 728 cal or 3054 kjs
15% of the calories are from fat, 21% from protein, 64% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

What is really surprising me is my lack of care when it comes to seeing other people eat yummy things or cooking for them.  I really thought that this would bother me a great deal but it hasn't been nearly as bad as I thought it would.  I did groan a little when the twins where having my favourite sausage rolls for lunch today but I certainly wasn't remotely tempted to try a little bit, maybe my band scares me a little, I certainly don't want to be bringing food back up or getting things stuck - yuck!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Loving Holiday's

I am really loving my holiday's.  A week and a half in, and feeling much better since the surgery I am starting to really enjoy all this free time! 

Another 2.5 weeks of pleasing myself suits me just fine.

We are heading to Scamander next week for three nights, will be nice to get away from everything and just relax with the girls.  Sarah is staying home to puppy-sit, she has a school function and work commitments, it's funny how much things change as they grow up.

I have actually been quite busy today booking various accomadation for upcoming trips, flights, all sorts of things.

We have Scamander next week, DH goes to Brisbane for a couple of days in September, Emily and I go to Hobart for a couple of days the weekend after DH gets home for her Miss Country Girl Tasmania final, then in October we have a Netball carnival in Hobart - sheeshhhh the list goes on!

To top it all off I decided to book some flights to Melbourne for DH and myself next March, right in between our birthday's.  I am planning a very indulgent weekend for just the two of us!  For once I got the Jetstar flights before they sold out - $70 return  per person. 

Now today's lapband update - it was a good day. 

I am quite 'tight' in the morning, apparently this is quite common and I am managing it by sticking to my hot Sustagen.  I have to sip sip sip it over 20-25 minutes otherwise I tend to get a bit of gassiness floating around which can be uncomfortable. 

I had to pop into work today and finalise my Performance Assessment for the new year, it actually took longer than expected and I was kicking myself on the way home for not taking a bottle of water with me, I was really tired by the time that I left and I am sure it was due to not enough fluids. 

Of course I topped up when I got home and had a protein shake, but I need to be mindful of those situations.

I took Baby Boots into see everyone, do you think this little girl  put a smile on anyone's face?

Today's Menu
200ml Sustagen
200ml Bodyshape
200ml Tomato Soup
250ml V8 Citrus Splash Juice
140gm Strawberry Snak Pack
250ml Skinny Cappuccino

This equates to 803 cal or 3359kjs
11% of the calories are from fat, 26% from protein, 64% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

I'm not hungry and the liquids aren't bothering me yet. 
Sometimes I *think* I am hungry and then I re-think it and realise it is head-hunger talking not real hunger.
I actually had to make myself have soup tonight and have also decided to start taking a multi-vitamin every day, once I am on mushie food's my calorie/nutrition intake is going to go up quite a bit but I still want to ensure I am getting lots of vitamins.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

One Week....Yipeee!

I fought the urge to re-weigh myself this morning.  I have decided on Sunday's and Sunday's it will be!  It is absolutely bucketing down here, freezing and windy,  so I didn't do a great deal at all today. 

DH was quite handy and installed all the new blinds for our front lounge, yes - it has taken us a year to do it!  They look great and I couldn't be happier.

Nothing like sitting in your 19 degree house watching the wild wet weather outside, I am starting to think I should have all of my holidays during the winter month's, maybe I am really a bear and need to hibernate?

Overall a very good day 7 for my new lapbanded life.  I *think* that there is a bit of hunger creeping in although I still don't feel growly tummy hungry, more just an empty feeling. 

It amuses me that 3/4 a cup of soup sipped over 20 minutes fills that empty feeling!

Today's Menu

Water, water, water
200ml Sustagen
250ml V8 Juice
200ml Vlish tomatoe, spinach and feta soup
200ml Asian Laska Soup
200ml Coffee
1 Chocolate Snack Pack
1 Freddo Frog - yes I sucked him with my coffee - YUMMO!
22% of the calories are from fat, 11% from protein, 67% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

This equates to 840 cal or 3420 kjs

Monday, August 23, 2010

The Week That Was.....

Long, painful BUT very worthwhile!

I decided that Sunday would be my official weigh in day, it fits in well as I can update my blog, pictures etc all on the same day.

So yesterday I took new photo's and did my first weigh in since surgery.  A link to the picture's is on the top left, you will need to leave me a message and I will send you the password.

I have lost a remarkable 4.5kgs or 9.9 pounds.  That's like giving birth!  I do think that I have lost 1 kg of each boob though - isn't that always the way?

I do feel pretty good today but do have some 'stitch' like pain on my lower left side which I am guessing is where the port is sitting.  Nothing a bit of Panadol won't fix.

Biggest adventure for today will be a trip to the post office I think.

My new puppy 'Boots' is settling in nicely, she is a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel and so sweet.  The only problem we have is that 'Buckle' our One year old Cavalier King Charles Spaniel is scared of her!

It is ever amusing to watch this tiny little girl chase him around the house, she wants to play, he wants to hide.

Sunday's Menu

Water - I keep a bottle with me at all times, lots of fluids are important
200ml Sustagen
200ml Bodyshape with 1/2 banana
200ml Coffee
4tablespoons jelly, 4 tablespoons custard

This equates to 670 Cal or 2815 Kjs
9% of the calories are from fat, 25% from protein, 66% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

And I must say - this is probably not enough, I need to make effort today to get more in.  We went out in the afternoon yesterday and came home to visitors, so quite a few hours of distraction there!

Monday's Menu

200ml Sustagen
200ml Up and Go
1 Cup Chicken and Corn Soup drained
4tablespoons jelly, 4 tablespoons custard
150ml Tom Yum Seafood Soup drained
1 Strawberry Snac Pac

This equates to 885 cal or 3700 kjs
21% of the calories are from fat, 16% from protein, 64% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

I think I was hungry late afternoon, I didn't feel hungry in the traditional sense of growling tummy hungry but I sure felt cranky until I had a bit of soup.

And I would like to know exactly what Cadbury's think they are doing?  Introducing a cherry ripe roll this early in my banding is so not fair, I have to wait another three weeks at least to sample this little delicacy!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Back Home .....

Now I will probably have to do this in a couple of session because I am still quite sore and sorry for myself.  The lapband is officially in place!


We headed of to Hobart, was a quiet trip I was feeling quite reflective and not up for any great conversation's, far more concerned with thinking about what was to come. 
Settled into our room which was quite comfy and went out to find somewhere for lunch (ha! last nice lunch for a few weeks!). 
It was so cold, snow on top of the mountains so that biting wind was everywhere. 
We found a great little Cafe and I convinced DH to share a 'sample' plate with me - OMG delish!  Fresh crusty slices of french bread, two dips, smoked salmon, fresh ham, marinated artichoke, pickled onions, marinated capsicum, two cheeses, red onions and capers.  It was perfect.
After lunch we went back to the hotel, seriously too cold to do much else and there was still an hour or so until my Dr's appointment.
Eventually it was time to see the Dr, this was quite funny as for those that don't know Hobart is the Mecca of one way streets and it took us about three loops of this street before we got to the right number.  DH was suprisingly very patient through all of this.
Dr was fine - 10mins and $50 to be told that it would cost around $600 for him to keep me asleep for the 1-1.5 hour surgery.  Ok I say, after all I am in no position to negotiate, no way I want to wake up!
We had planned to go out for dinner but it was just too cold so we ordered in Pizza and had an early night. 
I actually woke up just before midnight and was awake for about two hours - nerves I guess.


We headed of to the hospital and arrived right on time - 7.30am.  Waited for about 30 minutes and was taken to my room that I would be sharing with another lady being bended.  This didn't bother me in the slightest, they where out of private rooms so what can you do? 
A nurse came in shortly after and took my obs, told me to gown up and wait - I was lucky number two on the list.  She then came back and wanted me to put some compression stockings on, fair enough, I actually had a blood clot on the lung post surgery in 1997 so any prevention sounds good to me.
Eventually down to the little waiting bay, where they took off the compression stockings and put these funny things on my legs - they wrapped around them and pumped up every few minutes, apparently helps stop blood clots forming.  My surgeon thinks that compression stockings are dangerous and hey I am not arguing in this little event he is the expert.
In to surgery at around 10am and its soon lights out for me - I wake up in just over an hour in recovery feeling really really uncomfortable and I am crying - hmmmmm more pain relief please. 
They are really good in recovery and can tell by your obs as to your level of distress, my Dr had already ordered a good dose of Fentanyl but topped it up with Morphine and I was soon comfortable - not pain free, but comfortable.
Back to my room at 12.30pm and there was my DH with flowers patiently waiting for me.  Now apparently he had been really worried about me and I was absolutely floored with how wonderful he was.  Nothing was too much trouble, he adjusted my bed, got my water, held my hand - he was just amazing!
I had a button to push for pain relief and I wasn't shy in using it, didn't see any good reason to be in pain so I did my best not to be. 
It is actually better to request/use pain relief as soon as you feel pain returning so that you have a consistant level of comfort.
I experienced a lot of gas pain, shoulder tip pain, and a persistant tightness in the centre of my chest which is also an effect of all the gas they use to blow up your tummy during surgery.
I spent the afternoon having lots of little naps along with some hot, sweaty spells (pain relief drugs) and at about 5pm dinner was served - clear broth and apple juice.............ummm nice!
The first thing I noticed was that after three or so mouthfulls I was indeed full and actually not interested in the slightest in having anymore.
At about 7pm I was up and mobile, it really helps to get up and move around frequently - yes it hurts your tummy wounds BUT it also really helps the gas disperse and that pain is far far worse in my opinion.  I also found that having my bed quite upright helped to reduce the gassy pain as well.

Wednesday - Going Home

Before discharge breakfast arrived - clear broth and apple juice.......ummmm ok.  At this point I was thinking what in the world have I let myself in for.  I was in pain and feeling a bit sorry for myself.  Wish I had felt quite as sorry for myself 50kgs ago!!  Before I could go home I had to have a barium swallow test.  Basically they give you an xray, get you to swallow some yucky yellow stuff, take another xray while you are swallowing and then take another xray five minutes later.  It didn't take long and I didn't even think the yellow stuff was that bad, maybe I had some really miserable cough medicines as a child. 
Our drive home was just over 300kms and it was a bit rough, I was sick half way home and that worried me.  What if I had torn some stitches, moved the band etc etc.  Quick call to the Dr and I was set to go, he reassured me that the xrays had looked great and it was likely to be from the pain relief drugs overnight.  Considering I didn't do much on the way home I was still exhausted by the time we got home and was more than happy to snuggle up on the recliner with my water bottle, the remote and Buckle my 1 year old Cavalier King Charles Spaniel!


Oh boy, sore sore sore.  Wondering if I have just made the biggest mistake of my life.  Incredible gas pain overnight has left me exhausted, poor DH admitted he was considering taking me to the hospital but really this would have been an over-reaction.  There are a few things that help the yucky gas pain - heat packs, panadol, degas and movement.  I did all four of these and it did help. 
Not much happening in the liquid eating department, I am not feeling hunger of any type.  Drinking plenty of water and also managed to have:

250ml Up and Go
250ml V8 Juice
200ml Sustagen
200ml Iced Coffee

This equates to around 750 calories or 3100 kilojoules.
12% of the calories are from fat, 20% from protein, 68% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Now these where consumed over the whole day and sipped slowly, 50-100ml in each sitting.  I do get quite a lot of gassy pain after drinking, a bit like an unproductive burp.  It is eased quite well with heat packs and I am hoping it eases soon.  The wounds on my tummy are still quite sore as well and I walk a little hunched over like I did after the c-section with the twins, I need to remind myself to straighten up and stretch out.  I check into a lapband thread on Yahoo daily to see how other people that have had the procedure done at the same time as me are travelling and there seems to be huge variances in recovery rate's.  So I think it really is a case of each to their own.


Still had to sleep in the recliner overnight, laying down on my back feels like too much pressure and laying on my side hurts my tummy.  Feeling a little better each day and able to get around and get more and more done.  I have no idea how people with small children manage this, I guess its just a case of doing what you have to at the time.  I do wonder whether the lack of an Optifast weight loss period prior to the surgery makes the recovery longer.  The idea around the Optifast period is to allow the liver some time to reduce in size making surgery a little easier.  Maybe I just have a big old fatty liver that needed to be yanked and pulled every which way to get the lap-band in?  Will need to ask the Dr when I go back on the 9/10/10.
Today's menu - water and lots of it, introduced a bottle of cordial as well to liven up the day!

Also managed:

250ml Up and Go
250ml V8 Juice
200ml Sustagen
100ml Iced Coffee
200ml Tomato Soup

This equates to around 780 calories or 3250 kilojoules.
11% of the calories are from fat, 13% from protein, 76% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

We also had some tragic news tonight, Danielle's best friend Bec Lambie died as a result of a car accident, she was only 29 and leaves behind her three adored children.


Managed two hours in bed last night before I went back to the recliner, once on the recliner I was soon snuggled up to Boots our new 8 week old Cavalier King Charles Spaniel!
Isn't she just an angel?  Tiny as well fits in the palm of your hand sweet girl she is.  Feeling a little better again today, one of my first dressings came of, the girls where quite impressed with my 'wound'.  Big day to day, went out to vote and buy some bits and pieces for Boots and a new book for me.  When we got home we had visitors, Margie came over and bought 4 of Emily's friends with her.  The girls all had a great afternoon and ate chip butties for lunch while I had some tomato soup.  Quite funny that this didn't bother me in the slightest, and I usually would have had two butties, a good handfull of chips and probably a dim sim as wel!
I also helped Samantha cook dinner, chicken wrapped bacon in a creamy mushroom and spinach sauce with salad - how good does that sound?  Apparently it was delicious so I will make it again in a few weeks when I can have a cup full!  Had an easy night, as I was pretty tired from all of this new activity!

Today's menu - water, water, water and

250ml Up and Go Energise
200ml Sustagen
200ml Cup Of Coffee
100ml Tomato Soup
100ml Creamy Spinach and Bacon Sauce
Small serve low fat ice cream and jelly

This equates to 800 calories or 3400 kilojoules.
23% of the calories are from fat, 21% from protein, 57% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

I still haven't felt 'hungry' - I am sure it is coming but so far I haven't experienced it.

Monday, August 16, 2010

One more sleep.....

Well here it is.

The drive down starts in about 20 minutes and I can tell you I am so happy Sam is driving because I don't think I could.

At the moment I am teetering on the edge of total anxious meltdown.

Scared Scared Scared - I know that this is a safe (as safe as any surgery can be) procedure and it is something I rreally need to do but I am still scared.

Breathe Breathe Breathe!

I am not expecting to be back until Wednesday afternoon and will do a full update then. 

Don't forget if you want to follow my journey via pictures as well you will need to leave me a message with your email address requesting the password.

In the meantime:

Read about my Dr - He is a great guy

Check out where we are staying tonight - Sam will stay on there while I am in hospital overnight - it was a great price $89/night for two people!

Hobart Accomadation

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Two More Sleeps...

So tomorrow morning we head down to Hobart - not long to go now!

Yesterday I said goodbye to Mr Bourban and Coke for a while - sheesh I could have missed that farewell I am really paying for it today.

Spent 7 hours in the rain watching two of our girls playing at a netball carnival - very wet and cold.

Samantha's U13 team came first and to top it off Samantha was voted Best and Fairest for her age group! 

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Three more sleeps.....

Three more sleeps.
We have always counted down special occasions with the number of sleeps - birthdays, xmas, holidays, they have all been patiently waited for with the magical countdown.

This particular countdown isn't for your typical special occasion though it marks the arrival of my lapband surgery, surgery which I am hoping will take me back to a healthy, more energetic weight.
I am looking forward to the surgery but I am also anxious - is this the right thing for me, will it work (10% of lapband surgery patients fail)

I have been saying goodbye's over the last week.....McDonalds, Noodle Box, Chips & Gravy, Cheese & Onion Chips, some of my closest friends that have been around for the last couple of years supporting my impressive weight gain. I ask myself if I am truly ready for the mental challenge, I think giving up smoking may seem an easy thing to do after this, we will see.